When I finally weighed myself at the gym for the first time I couldn't believe it. I thought/hoped the scale was wrong.
It read 286. lbs!!! That meant I had to loose 102 lbs!? To get to 184. Wtf!!! Can't believe I'm that big. No wonder my body feels the way it does.
But going with 102 lbs I forced myself to make a conscious decision between two versions of myself in the future.
- The one version where I continue on a run away train to 300 lbs. Feeling worse and more sick then ever.
- Or the version who pulls the emergency brake and brings this thing to a halt and starts to reverse course back down to 184 lbs.
The choice I made was version 2 and I was going to forget everything that led me to 286 lbs. That's the past which I can't change so why waste energy on it. Instead I'm 100% focused on my present self and imagining that future version.
286 is just a number. Just a my starting point. Nothing else.